Sunday, May 31, 2009

before you make the biggest mistake of your life, just give me the chance to get it right

I found a method of madness of confessions of our hope to steer away from the travesties of hanging from your rope. this is a milestone of thoughts in which will make me stronger I am not me, nor you can call me any longer.

I need to sit in solitude and analyze the verdict. versions of your settlement and your beauty without virgin. I've opened my eyes and shut out my ears and forgotten about his movie. finding movie clips and silhouettes and everything that runs through me.

I wore a mask for you
because these people deny the truth
I've been running around in circles because my brain denies to choose

- cantfindavillain // final curtain

Monday, May 25, 2009

bay area state of mind.





"progress comes from the intelligent use of experience."


Peace of mind is the greatest thing one could possess; without it, everything around you will fail because your mind is the central location for all of your thoughts and actions. I pray for peace everyday i wake up.. I pray for motivation, for inspiration.. that I am able to bless someone the same way I've been blessed. I've always wanted to see everyone else become better. in the process of finding out how pitiful that logic was, I've been able to focus that energy on battering myself. things really do fall in place, and so cliche.. but things really do happen for a reason. if you aren't in a positive situation or around positive people - remove yourself from it because the dead end you are heading to will be a long, painful road... and we all know misery loves company.


even kanye said, people in your life are seasons and anything that happen is for a reason.


cheers to a new life, a new mindset, and a better me.
thank you, bay area. thank you for always being there.

Monday, May 18, 2009

Got that new I'm a single girl swag,
got me with my girls and we're singin' it

*%$#








can't believe I spent the last 4 thursdays @ Shark Club... nevertheless, i had lots of fun with these lovely ladies =) ohh you crazies.

as I stated in my previous post, I gave up on AIM and cut back on the time I spend reading about other people's lives (aka stalking) on facebook in order to "live life to the fullest" by physically engaging in it. although it has only been a couple days, I can honestly say that I now have found my life a little more fulfilling than before...





there's no designated age for not knowing anything.. we're all kinda forced to sit back contently and put up a guard til we find out. I'm assuming that's why everyone seems so unhappy and unopen. I mean, what are the odds of finding someone who willing puts their guards down? people seem more comfortable hidden behind their pseudo joy and keeping their shells intact. I understand it, but it's so .. plain jane. ever notice how dull it is seeing people isolate themselves in their comfort zones all the time..?

you don't know where you're going, but why not live a little?




“ We tend to forget that happiness doesn’t come as a result of getting something we don’t have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have."

Friday, May 15, 2009

this sounds familiar...



"Like, we're only friends but I feel so lonely
And its kinda like fishing,
I bait the hook then wait until a coy swims in my vision
And time keeps on ticking...
So long now this boat I'm in feels like my prison
Cause I wanna set sail and see shit
But secretly the thought of me and you makes you sea sick
But that don't mean you don't like me,
you just don't LIKE ME like me
Now I might be bitter but shit"

Sunday, May 10, 2009

new outlook.


"live your life, engage in it, instead of reading about other people's lives on facebook for hours." - Prof. Bach.


I'm glad I have met one of those truly inspirational professors during my time here at UCI.

Goodbye, AIM. I know I can't give up facebook completely.. but I'll try to limit the time I spend on it. Contact me via phone, text, knocking on my door, whatever. Keep checking my blog cuz I'll be updating =)

better days are on its way.


(breathtaking)


it's been a rough ride and I'm still flowing down a rocky river but I gotta keep reminding myself that nothing is permanent. through everything that has happened in the past few days... I gotta keep telling myself that better day is coming.

a wise man (tupac) once said, "life goes on" and although it could be harsh, that's just the truth. a flower that grows in the ghetto know more about survival than the one with fresh petals. and obviously all of you know that I don't live in the ghetto but crucial measures are crucial measures regardless of your locations.

i'm taking my baby steps, trying to rid the fear in every stride. I have to, cause it takes way more strength to turn back. ughhh I'm tired =(

someone told me a better day is coming. plus, a wise man (tupac) once said, "that's just the way it is.. awwww yeah"


oh, and happy mother's day to hands down, the BESTEST mother in the world. words cannot describe how amazing my mother is and how much I appreciate everything she does for me.

and lastly, check out my current fav jam :)



"You can't stay in your corner of the Forest waiting for others to come to you. You have to go to them sometimes." -- Winnie the Pooh . word..

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

late night cram sesh.

To make the mundane magnificent.
To see the world through my eyes cause I see it like none other.


I'm finding grace within myself.



"the next adventure, remains a mystery
then i paint a picture to stain your memory
as i secure my place in history
in your heart i stay, come visit me"