eargasmic heaven on height street

Amoeba Music might just be one of the many reasons why I am a die-hard San Francisco fan. Ever since I 'accidentally' discovered this place over the past winter break.. this is all I could think about and dream about .. It is probably, hands down, the best independent record store in California and it's exactly what I imagine the heaven to be like....

I'd kill myself right now for this.


(i just kinda creamed my pants)


random thought - romantic feelings ruins friendships. many baby-friendships which could've developed into something very meaningful have been ruined in the recent past because of stupid thing called feelings.. i wish we didn't have feelings : (

random thought 2 - I WANT THIS SHIPPED NOW ALREADY! stupid Amazon.


sennheiser eh-150 :)
same headphones as the ones @ amoeba. sexgasm in mah ear!

Marry Me, please?

forever became real, but even realer with you.

♫ The Light '08 - Common ft. Bilal
"I know your heart had been broken by a love that pass, & when you're not lookin', that's what love can grab you sometimes we gotta ask, are we moving too fast? ain't no limit to a love that's given from above."

Oh common.. he always gets me.

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Beta Royal - took about 60 pictures. only about 5 decent ones.













mm.. going out ain't the same anymore..
am I getting old..... IM NOT EVEN 21 YET!!!!

I Am

Indecisive.
Unsure.
Confused.
Tired.
Incapable.
Fearful.
Nervous.
Incompetent

but despite all that...
I.am.READY.


to trust, to understand, to appreciate,
to let my guards down,
to let myself become vulnerable again..


I am ready to....... perhaps.... love???

my inner pikachu

Today @ Starbucks...

They wrote my name as PIKA instead of Arika.. Yeah I'm Japanese and all but do I resemble Pikachu that much? Or am I just so fobby that I can't even pronounce my name correctly?

FML.

no sense of direction

she walks away; far, far away
says that this is not what you want
so you should just go.

she talks as if it's the truth that speaks
the truth that sounds like its disguised as a lie
but holds firm as if truth

she asks, what is it that you feel?
is this what you truly want?
and I don't know who she seeks the answer from

she says you've been tired for so long
so you should rest.
says that the day light is done and night has come
head off to sleep, and dream, sweet dreams

once you wake up, she continues on
you'll approach a new day
my words will change
words that repeat the same message
or to a new world all on it's own

but whatever it is, my voice is loud and clear.

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lately i feel like i'm losing a sense of direction. is this really where i need to be? is this really what i want? do i even belong here? what the hell am i doing with my life? and these questions won't be answered for quite awhile..

& i'm just so sick of... college. socal. oc. afhiowhifjioaheroi someone please get me out of this place

Happy Valentine's Day!

It's more than consumer conspiracy or THE day to love. In all actuality, everyday should be a valentines day, or should be a day to make a New Year resolution, or to appreciate this person or that.forget the candy or the card companies, forget all of that. If people think that Valentine's day is the day to say "Today, I'm really going to appreciate my love for my girlfriend or boyfriend," then they should really look at what they do in their relationships. Try Valentine's day everyday..maybe relationships can mean a lot more :)



What I would like people to understand that you might not have the idea that you are very lucky - lucky to experience in the past or the present, a love in life that is very important. there are times when we don't truly fathom how a relationship is and how effective it is for one another. People cheat, mistrust, become jealous, and eventually get fed up of the relationship. In all essence, it just doesn't work out. They forget that as much as they are consumed by the negative outcome of what could have been a good lasting relationship, there is another person at the other side of the bridge who feels that they should have the respect any other person should deserve. We are consumed by our own endeavors, selfishness, wants, etc. that we just want to get on with our own lives and end it at that. In turn, when we are the ones being put into these circumstances, we want nothing, but to get that respect.. right? At the end of the day, we only hope that there is a decency that others have inside of them to do what is necessary. But I digress. Remember that when you look at the person in his/her eyes, that at the moment, everything is perfect.

<3

foot prints in the sand have been left there for a while
the waves weren't strong enough to shift it out

I want to be one of a kind

vendor fair this week on campus = broke + fat arika from over consumption of kettle corn and useless spendings on useless things..

when the rain dries up, we only get closer

even though the rain is gone.. my mind is still clouded.



"Sometimes, you just have to put a period on something that has to end, and not just settle on a comma. Why? Cuz time will come, you'll realize that it's nicer to see a complete sentence rather than seeing a phrase that's completely hanging and doesn't even make any sense." w0rd

reverse&drive. another stupid move. but I came out clean.

Rain - Elemnop

fly away with the night of day

cradle orchestra gives me chills.. in a good way of course.

I've been recently lost in emotions and it's been a little too complex. it's become extremely frustrating to figure everything out, but then I face back wondering if it's even necessary at all. So now I just find it hard to come to a conclusion. Should a conclusion even be reached at all? It makes no sense to cry. It makes no sense to feel. no sense at all.

Sometimes I lack that common sense. I'm drowned in my metaphorical ways that stating the obvious just flies right past me. I know common sense is valuable, not question about that. I guess I put so much into common sense, the definition of it all disappears and turns into something else.



if I could paint a picture of exactly how the world was to me.. the sky would be clear - no clouds could shed a tear, and the moon man would always have a smile. but if i could destroy faith, the canvas would be black....//