Saturday, January 31, 2009

696 people agree my life is fucked up



in case you can't see, I wrote..

"Today, a guy sitting next to me in class asked me for a pen. I accidentally handed him a tampon instead. FML."

Currently, 696 people agree that my life is fucked up, while 169 people think that I deserved that one. Oh, how I love this site, makes procrastination so much easier.


GODDAYUM! I just said i won't blog til tuesday... FML.

sky's jigsaw puzzle



Usually when you step back from something, and I mean far back, you can see the whole picture. What you thought wasn't there, what sticks out against everything else, what makes things click, tick, and run. For some reason, stepping back, I felt I was about to fall back. Everything seemed like a jigsaw puzzle.. even the sky, and the parts just didn't fit right. The picture wasn't giving me the view that I thought I was going to get. Instead, I still felt like everything was not right. I felt like, feel like, things are not going well because of me. It's extremely frustrating when it just doesn't click, when it all just doesn't feel right. Even the good advice doesn't seem to work at all. The worst advice probable wouldn't even matter. Nothing seems like it's going to get better. It all just seems too wrong, and I'm really tired of trying to figure it out.

this must be the pre-midterm effect.. I feel like my head is going to explode. All the cramming, all the information, journals, projects, essays, all ofit is a little too much to take. I don't want to read anymore, write, think, be creative, or anything. I just want to sleep and be a bum and finish my japanese drama theories I've been meaning to complete. This does, although, give me an excuse for me to stay home on a Friday night (and not be called a loser) while everyone's out partying. So I guess it's okay...


here are some STOLEN pictures of thursday night.
The theme was GREEK (GLAMOUR) GODDESS except I ended up looking like a jungle lady except not as sexy because... shit I never follow the theme anyways.


i know i know, we cute.

my favorite thing to do while on facebook is to find ugly people in the background doing ugly things and making them be the stars of the picture =) here's some from that night.


my crotch must've been icthing.. and i wanted some tequilla shot.


should've warned her not to run through the aisle on the bus... cuz you're gonna get your tummy squished multiple times.


the end.

I'm going to try not to blog for awhile.. at least until tuesday when my first midterm is over. please feel free to send me music because i'm in a dire need for some new study jam & also a study buddy. thank you & everyone, good luck on your midterms.

Friday, January 30, 2009

too much funky shit inside my brain


please, listen to this song. it.is.absolutely.beautiful.

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a part of me still wants to run
run free from any chain and knowledge of now
to run and deny life as I know

I want to run to see how far I can go
before I realize that I miss home
to see what I had, and all of it had been there all along

I want to know the life I have, even though I truly do know it

I want to run from you,
that the person I see is not the person I want to stay close to
the vision in front of me is not a vision to see
So I want to run

Not for something.

I don't know why my legs move
and why my mind commands it so
but it does, and I can not stop.
my mind commands my legs to move, and my heart to race
but in this time and space, I stay still but visually escape..



been watching too many poetry jams on youtube.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

time for a change



This year, I decided to declare a double major in international studies along with business economics. I know shit's gonna be tough but hey, at least I get to study about things that I really care about.

So what image opened YOUR eyes to human rights?

Sunday, January 25, 2009

anywhere but here

forget the he say, she say, they say, I heard...

Take me back to the bay where people take me for who I really am, and not for what others assume of me.

"It don't take a whole day to recognize sunshine, but I'm tired of being trapped by your thunderstorm."

Now time to put on that arika smile & get on with my life. Goodbye.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

{ firm or soft }



Ever since the day I was born, I have only been fed soft tofu by my loving mother, so my body naturally developed this odd tendency to reject anything that's 'firm'. So when I found out that I accidentally bought 3 large packs of FIRM tofu from Costco, I was pretty devastated & vowed to never lay my hand on it. (ok, a lil exaggerated here)

But last night, I was dying of extreme hunger and unluckily, I had absolutely nothing to eat BUT firm tofu.. Yes, I was given the choice to either suffer a slow and painful death from starvation, or to eat the tofu and stay alive. When given this ultimate choice, I suddenly had a change of heart and decided to give this bad boy a try! And guess what.... I ENDED UP LOVING IT!

So I guess the point I'm trying to make is "kuwazu girai shinai," which means "to dislike without tasting," because you might be missing out on something that might just be the most food-gasmic thing ever ;P I love you tofu, firm or soft baby!

Monday, January 19, 2009

sense of sight.


Sometimes one of the hardest things of all is seeing things as they really are. Could have been's, should have been's, ought to be's, can't believe it isn'ts --- all these clouds our vision of the world around us. But seeing through these various illusions is the first step toward accepting things as they are, and it may just be the most difficult... I dunno.. in my head it all makes sense, but they're most definitely easier said than done..


On a brighter note, weather here in socal has been absolutely amazing. I never thought I'd ever live to see myself bust out my summer dresses in the middle of January, but I ain't complaining.. just someone take me to the beach & I'll be all smiles =)

here are the pictures from another epic night;
70's THEMED STUDIO 54 PARTY!







witnessed plenty of puke-age and underage drinking - pretty shitty night. but hey, seems like someone got a lil somethin' somethin' on the way to the venue (see above picture)


<3 keke palmer. nightie night.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

s0ul'd out to the maximum



I can take a NO as graciously as I can take a YES, but a MAYBE might just kill me..

Sunday, January 11, 2009

longest post ever



Been only a week since I left the bay, yet it feels like it's been forever... I'm still itching for the bay breeze & all the great things I had to leave behind in the bay & I guess looking at my pictures from the break doesn't really help me get accustomed to living this life in the fast lane..

so the real "fun" started when I got my 21+ id! my first night bar hopping experience @ Santana Row.

my first tokyo tea



hi creepers in the background


definitely splurged on lots of good eats. (sucks to be a fatass = no $$$)







mmmmm. can I say food-gasmic?

I also had countless adventures in the city. Stumbled upon so many gems in unlikely places which made me love the city ever than before. Also bought a "I <3 SF" shirt for 2 dollars in chinatown, and it's probably the best purchase I've ever made during this break.







doesn't this picture go perfectly together with the song Street Light? I wouldn't have stumbled upon this place if it weren't for us getting lost in the parking lot and jumping up and down on the high-speed elevators. gotta love the spontaneity.



other random memories of the break;


epic fail photo shoot on san mateo bridge















mmm.. can't get enough of them street lights ;)


i'm so hood.


walking back to my apartment at 6am in the morning.. the entire alley was covered in colorful leaves. felt like I was in a whole new worldd *lalala*


this is the very last thing I ate before I left for school. seafood fried rice at a 24hour chinese restaurant in milpitas.


& this nigerian right here spent the entire break diggin holes in Vietnam. I guess I'll forgive you cuz you brought me back doraemon slippers lol.


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whenever I hear the song street lights, I think of my winter break, so I guess it's best to conclude that street light was the theme song for my wonderful break spent in the brEEzy bay area.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

beep beep beep.



It feels like I have been losing control of things in my life. Not the chaotic loss of control, nor is it the absence of identity that I‘m trying hard to find. I know myself, and I know myself well. I feel like there is something missing. A part of my life that seems so close to me, yet so distant from my grasp. For my current engagements of my life, I’m trying to find my way to get it all back. There’s simple distractions that I’m allowing myself to drown into. I don’t blame others nor am I going to allow to blame myself for these distractions. I love the life that I misdirect myself into. I do however feel like the changes are taking me farther away from where I know, I need to be, wherever that is.


Maybe all I need is a quick ramen fix. yeah, that's probably it. nomnomnom.

Thursday, January 08, 2009

fly love song ft. pase rock




feelings like this should not be released in public.



I'll leave you all with something to ponder about;

"In the space between yes and no, there's a lifetime. It's the difference between the path you walk and the one you leave behind. It's the gap between who you thought you could be and who you really are. It's the legroom for all the lies you'll tell yourself in the future."

Monday, January 05, 2009

Old to the New

2009 = A New Me

What I was: an indecisive, selfish child prone to have been insensitive at some points of my life; cared too much about what others thought of me; unprioritized; thought I knew everything about everything and that my way was the right way; lazy.

What I want to achieve to be: one who truly emphasizes; stands on my own ground and have a solid foundation; polite even if it's easier to be rude; calm and collected; stick to my priorities; realize and accept the person that I am.

Cheers to 2009, and hello to Southern California once again.. It's a day2 in the (not-so)ILLvine & I already want to start a countdown til the next time I can be back in the bay. Is this normal?



Doraemon, please take me back to the Bay where my <3 still resides with your magic door, I would give anything to breathe and feel the bay breeze once again... (I will be doing an update on the break soon)